"NEEDING TO GET IN TOUCH WITH MY INNER CHILD" RESOLVE FEELINGS OF HELPLESSNESS, LOW SELF ESTEEM, INADEQUACY, INSECURITY
Comments:
IF I HAD ONLY RESOLVED THE RAGE AND PAIN OF MY CHILDHOOD ACT OF "THE HOMOSEXUAL" ATTACKING ME WHEN I WAS 9YO THEN MAYBE , JUST MAYBE, I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO TRUST AND TRUELY FEEL LOVED, LOVEABLE AND ADEQUATE WITHOUT FEELING THE NEED TO CONTROL, OVERPOWER, ABUSE, AND BE LITTLE WOMEN AND REPRODUCE KID'S LIKE CATTLE IN ORDER TO FEEL "LIKE A MAN". NOT REALIZING THAT MANHOOD IS NOT MEASURED BY THE ABILITY TO PROLIFERATE? IT'S NOT ENTIRELY MY FAULT FOR I KNOW NOT WHAT I DO? IT'S IN THE SUBCONSCIENCE! STATED BY "THE INNER CHILD" HOSE LOUIS CARRASCO DR 12/18/59
School Story:
RAGE, MISTRUST, "PLAYING THE GAME", MY WAY OR THE HIGHWAY, DR JEYKYL AND MR. HYDE. I AM DOING ALL THAT I DO TO PROVE TO OTHER'S THAT I AM WORTHY? BUT HAVE I CONVINCED MYSELF YET AT THE RIPE OLE AGE OF 50? AND THE PROBLEM IS? ALL OF YOUR FAMILIES HAVE SUFFERED BECAUSE OF YOUR INABILITY OR UNWILLINGNESS TO FACE YOUR FEARS AND YOUR PAST. EVEN DOCTOR'S NEED SECOND OPINIONS
Military Service:
HITLER'S ARMY
THE MOVIE THAT BEST DESCRIBES MY LIFE IS "THE WAR OF THE ROSES" AND "WHAT'S EATING GILBERTS GRAPE"
